Saturday, March 27, 2010


wATCHED BEVERLY hILLS CHIHUAHUA 2DAY!!amazing movie!!if bozo ever has a baby i am naming her chloe...she was so cute....especially because she was having the voice of Drew Barrymore.....a must watch 4 all dog lovers!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

A page from my Life Diary

Life seems so pathetically unjust at times(no make that EVERY TIME!). My father comes home shouting at the top of this voice and I have to constantly cope with his uneven temper. Mom returns and says-"Why was your phone busy?Were you up up all afternoon chatting with your boyfriend?Were You?"

Then again i find them telling me that i am incapable of doing any good.I am tired of being everyone's venting machine. It is so difficult to stay alone at home home all day and then have your parents coming back only to shout their wits of at you. Its just that they never realized the troubles i have been facing growing up all by myself,having no one to talk to.At school,I was betrayed hurt and made fun of and at home,my sanity was put to test.Whoa!life could not have been better.

Love is a fanciful subject,but yet again i believe in it because i have been deprived of affection all my life. I often find myself standing in front of the mirror; talking to it; earnestly hoping that it would lend an arm and help me get through the mess called "LIFE".I love watching Disney, mommy tells me I am too old for it, then why does she suspect me of watching porn if i am old enough?? She thinks when she is away,I invite my "BOYFRIENDS" to come over.

I do wonder at times-"Is it so difficult to trust someone like me?Can't they accept me for who i am?And as far as guys are concerned-"Who would even like someone like me?" Someone who is apprehensive,timid and unsmart ,someone who is scared of letting anyone near her because she cannot afford to be cheated on?Once when i was romantically involved with a guy;one of his female friends had told him-"She will never be able to satisfy you physically,I mean have you looked at her,seriously!!".I never really knew people could be this sick,gosh!

Well!that is why I believe that daydreaming works best for me.I need not change because my loved ones are supposed to adore me for what i am than what i can become! And as far the cliched "perfect Man" idea is goes my super cliched reply.."And one day he will come,i know he will!!"Someone who will be like a father when i am sick, a friend when i am distressed and a lover when i need a shoulder to cry on.Yeah!!A pathetic life does give you plentiful of reasons to hope.Although platonic love is a distant myth;I do wish for certain things to change in the future and change for the better.


Wednesday, March 24, 2010


Just because i did not end up blogging doesn't really mean i was studying...hold on what was i upto??....yeah precisely i was lost in a farfetched forlorn world dreaming about my wretched future...tomorrow is my chemistry exam....i know i will do horribly so i am not even opening the blessed book.....even when i mistake that is...i am unable to remember that is it..I HATE CHEMISTRY AND CHEMISTRY HATES ME......exams ending on the 31st......practically a week from today...needless to say i am elated at the very thought of it......what else.......i have got a brilliant story in mind...will pen it down as soon as my exams bid me goodbye...thats all 4 now......

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

What Next??

My exams are starting tomorrow, am i frightened??Jeopardized??Apprehensive or just NUMB??Will i be able to write anything??anything at all??I just cant study these days..God only knows what has come over me......I just pray everything goes the way they should.....i am too worried to type any further...take care friends.....
Bye 4 nw.....AMritA

Monday, March 1, 2010

If time could fly!!

I am super duper scared this time...i mean even while blogging my hands are shaking terribly...JUs one day more and then my board exams will begin, God what am i going to do??And the worst part is i do not feel like studying...even when i sit down to study panic gets the best of me leaving me flabbergasted....Oh!!how i wish i had a time turner....anyways i should get back to T.S Eliot and V.S Naipaul before they start haunting me even in my dreams......SERIOUSLY IF TIME COULD FLY.....then possibly my exams would be over even before i could spell the word....Any advice for me...feel free to comment.....till then take care..oH!!Yes Happy Holi...and do pray for me.