FRIENDS did u say?

Last year during this time,I was busy or rather pretending to be busy studying subjects I knew I had no future with.No matter what happened or how my day went,I was always keen on visiting the SIMC site at least once a day to ensure that I never let go of the dream which would redefine my life completely.Today it has been more than a month and I cannot help but notice that I could not have had things done otherwise.From Law to BA in English I kept my options as open as possible but I knew that would not take me an inch closer to what I had set to conquer.I must say that God has been very kind because many of my acquaintances who have been equally passionate were not selected.My so-called friends back home came to a conclusion that I am faking it all up because I was the last person they thought was capable enough to dream of something that BOLD and BIG.

When nothing worked one of them started spreading that I am not studying in the REAL SYMBIOSIS(wtf!).I cannot imagine the spite she had for someone like me who scored less than her throughout her school life but managed to soar high when the real test came to being.I still feel sad when I remember the shock in their eyes because I wanted them to be happy for me.Someone else at his insensitive best commented that-"Media is for losers" and that I was making the biggest mistake of my Life by not making a future out Physics,Chemistry and Maths.

Tomorrow is Friendship's day and instead of celebrating with my new friends I am sitting in my room,alone, writing about all my pent up feelings,feelings of remorse and of unhappiness.This Blog is specially dedicated to all the people who have been part of my not-so-happening life so far.The real courage does not lie in demeaning people or in claiming that you are better than them(which you may be)but in realizing that they are humans as well and they are in need of love and affection as much you do.The energy we waste in hating a person can be and should be used effectively to try to like someone instead.Lastly quoting from a song-"Lean on me, when you're not strong, and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long, 'til I'm going to need somebody to lean on."

A NEW LIFe! A NEW BEGINing!

If there is a heaven on Earth then I might as well say I am a part of it now and will continue to do so for the next 3 years.It is not just the place or the Institute it is the people of this place I have been surprisingly fond of.I remember feeling terribly homesick on a college day,so much so that I actually started crying in class.In the next momment i found my teacher hugging me tight.I had never felt such ease in a long,long,time.Our HOD keeps on threatning us,but his efforts show that he has best interests in mind,always.For the past two days I have not been keeping well and every time I am out of my class or even in the hostel corridors I have people coming upto me and asking me about my health.I have got lovely roomates,supportive friends and an amazing faculty to top it all.To someone who has not been exposed to this kind of lifestyle will never understand what I mean but the ones who have will always agree to what I have said.I just hope I can reciprocate such adulation with hardwork and perseverence.The road is long and arduous but this is my promise to all who have supported me during these few days that "I will never give up!"

WHEN DREAMS COME TRUE!

........"You are not selected".........And within moments my dream of studying at Symbiosis crumbled into pieces.Over the last couple of days I kept on rewinding the proceedings of 6th June over and over in my mind.I was far from being confident but I knew for a fact that if given a chance I could prove myself to the best of my abilities.The day my results were supposed to be out I was down with fever and I could not even sit in front of the computer to check whether I had actually made it.I was so confident that I hadn't even applied to colleges back in my hometown.

One senior had suggested to keep on checking my mails and remain positive.A week passed,still NO REPLY.It was then I decided to try my luck someplace else and I left for Dehradoon.

I returned yesterday only to find my computer out of order (Again!!).And today when I opened my mail box I was greeted with the most beautiful surprise of my life-"

June 19, 2010



Dear Applicant,



Congratulations on being short-listed for the Batch of 2010-2013 of the Symbiosis Institute of Media & Communication – Undergraduate (SIMC - UG). Having successfully cleared the second phase of admission to our three-year full-time Bachelor of Media Studies programme you are on the threshold of an exciting career."

Needless to stay I am elated.What I feel now cant be explained in words.Leaving for Symbiosis on the 25th or 26th.Take care all.

Regards,
Amrita

GOD And US

“We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls.”

Who is GOD?Your Mom,dad?Your neighbor,friend,teacher or are you an ardent supporter of Idol Worship?Can you bribe(ahem!)him,hate him,love him and worship him him in the same lifetime?What do you call him??Bhagwan?God?Allah??For a devout Hindu like me,those questions seem to rise out of no where and yet make sense at the same time.On asking my elders (Yes!!I was actually foolish enough to do so)they accused me of being blasphemous so I have set out to find the almighty myself and these are my observations,so far:

1.God is in that old woman in rags who comes to you asking for help and blesses you inspite of being met with a cold shoulder

2.God is in that little child whose laughter makes your day.

3.He resides in that little puppy yelping for help on a cold night.

4.It often happens that while on a road you find someone smiling at you,later you realize that poor man is blind.turn back and look at him once again.You are bound to find God in him.

5.Last but not the least I have found God in myself.Although it did not happen when I shamelessly asked him to help me take my exam when I knew more than anyone else that I did not study anything but in my seventeen years I have seen good things happen only when I have put in that extra effort.Having faith in yourself matters more than anything else .Realizing your mistakes and working towards rectifying them is more important than remaining a supposed saint. I believe“If there were no God, it would have been necessary to invent him.” Because whilst inventing him we would end up discovering ourselves.

Regards,
Amrita

What kind of a blogger I am.....

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate
You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.
One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

Growing up

I remember when I was a little girl,I loved dressing up.Irrespective of what I wore,I always thought that wearing a lil black bindi and having red lips were mandatory for looking pretty.Yeah!although it sounds like GROTESQUE I managed to end up looking irresistibly cute every time.Unlike most kids,I loved it when people came up to me and pressed my cheeks.Mom used to have real long hair back then and how I wished they were mine.So what I would do is,take a towel(aka gamcha) and a couple of hair clips and VOILA!!!!...........

Yeah!Childhood was INSANE!!But back then it all seemed so normal.I mean,I just despise wearing any kind of make-up now.My mom thinks that long hair would perfectly compliment the 5'7 " me,I thought short hair suited me much better.I had always been this timid yet amicable girl who could be easily influenced by anyone.Today that very girl has people coming upto her for seeking advice.Back then,it did not matter how girls around me used to look BUT NOW IT DOES,IT SOOOOO DOES.I always keep on telling my friends that I am happy the way I am,but secretly I comfort myself by saying-"Not everyone is a true judge of beauty".Lately i find anything and everything to fuss about but as a child I was believed to have been the reincarnation of Goddess Durga (P.S:I was born on the 5th day of Durga Puja).

Anyways childhood was fun and I hope that adolescence proves to be a blessing as well.Lastly,I just can't end this one without a lovely quotation by Robert Browning.So here it goes,
"Grow old along with me,
the best is yet to be"

EQUALITY AND US!

Few weeks back most women were found to be single mindedly exlilarated about one thing-THE PASSING OF THE WOMEN'S RESERVATION BILL in Rajya Sabha.Now that the enthusiasm has finally died out something really significant has caught my eye.What on earth are we supposed to do with reservations when more than half of the population is unaware of what a bill actually means?Even though I am the only one who happens to be infuriated about such a thing,I know as a matter of fact that if things have to change it has to begin at the very grass root level.

More than anything else,reservation plain and simply means representation for those who are unable to stand up and fight for themselves.Reservation is NOT a SYNONYM for EQUALITY.IT NEVER WAS AND NEVER WILL.Now what do I want as a woman?I would gladly travel in a general compartment with my father;BUT I wont TOLERATE someone whistling at me while I am returning back home alone.Coming back to the point;Why does a woman always have to get up early and manage the household irrespective of any physical ailment she might be suffering from?Why don't we have a law/act preventing such a ruthless treatment?Although I severely deprecate smoking why does it become a TABOO only when a woman is found with a cigarette in her hand?EQUALITY,Did you say?

Marriages are made in heaven??DUhhh!!!The boy's family asks the girl-"Beti,What can you do apart from Singing, Dancing, Elocution,.......".Seriously,I feel like asking those morons,HAVE YOU LOOKED AT YOUR OWN SON??He looks like clean-shaved Verappan,plus doesn't the girl have equal right to ask back as to what the guy is capable of?Even in case of Love marriages, the boy can even suffer from a imbalanced immunity syndrome BUT the girl has to be a VIRGIN!!

Why is a girl who has been mercilessly raped refused of a fair trial?Why for God's sake is she deprived of having a normal future having people pointing a finger at her every now and then?Tell me,Why is a woman expected to cooperate even when her husband is having this clandestine affair with his secretary?If Women were borkha why don't we have a similar substitute for men also(atleast then those ******** will understand what it feels like to be out in the scorching sun in such a tormenting attire)?Laaaast but definitely not the least what is the male version of a SLUT(Please someone throw some light and make me enlightened)?

If MALES=INFEDILITY
FEMALES=INEQUALITY

The day you take care of the former the latter takes care of itself.

REGARDS,
Amrita